The Cosmos just HIT me! HARD.
First of all, to my friend Camille, thanks so much for the photos of you and Kat and Lydd, and Kat's SOLO!!! She looks so pretty!!! Awwwww, my best friend's groeing up!!! Hahahaha!!! LOL. :DOkay, now, back to this world of mine.
I recently borrowed this book from the Guildford Public Library here in Surrey, Canada. It's called "Sun Signs". It basically revolves around a girl who has Cancer and how she spends her might-be-last few days here on earth in correspondence with a teacher and a few subjects (She does school through internet correspondence), and what she discovers as she journeys through these last few days of hers in the internet.
Cool and unique, don't you think? But being in her shoes is one place you might not want to be, mind you.
And the plot also involves a Science project---and the girl's chosen one is ASTROLOGY. And she discovers A LOT about it, and its effects---good and bad---to people who have faith in it.
But that is sooo NOT the point.
And that is sooo NOT why I'm here!
The reason why I typed this entry is so that i could somehow vent my current feelings out.
As the title suggests, this entry will really have a connection to Astrology---and how it's established a connection with what I'M feeling right now.
First of all, before I continue ranting, to my dear friend Camille, remember iI told you once about a guy I was starting to admire? And I told you to get over it, 'cause I was over him, right?
Well, I LIED.
I'm sorry.
I just thought it's kind of WEIRD and all... and senseless...
But then, I told Kat in my airmail already (Did Kat tell you about it?? DID SHE RECEIVE MY MAIL??? Please tell me she did!!!), so I thought I really ought to tell you, too.
Besides, Ate Tin also has the right to know. :D
Here goes: I really admire this guy---he's nice, friendly, cool, helpful, smart, dilligent, not to mention very inquisitive. And did I mention already that he's really nice looking? ;)
There's just one itsy bitsy problem---AGAIN. (There's always a restriction involved whenever I like someone, right??? As always.)
He's the husband of my COUSIN!!! Yessss, he's in his near 30's, and he's the husband of my cousin who was kind and warm enough to accept her aunt, my mom, and ME and my dad in her home!!!
wAAAAAhhhhhh!!!! *sniff*
Now, get this: I'm not going overboard. And I am just being really nice to him (and to my cousin, of course, duh!), and I'm trying to be MYSELF and not being EXTRAordinarily nice. As much as possible I wanted to remain as I've always been towards those I liked in the Phils.---UNOBVIOUS and INCONSPICUOUS.
But there's just one problem---since I realized I started admiring him, he started acting strange (He has NO IDEA what's going in me, ok? :D ). What I mean by strange is... IGNORANT. Of ME.
Don't make me specify anything. But I admit, there have already been instances I noticed he was actually ignoring me---straight at the face. It's not really that bad, and it's not all the time (he kind of treats me in a "special" sort of way, occasionally---asks me "are you still hungry? eat more *smiles*" or "you okay? kamusta ka na?", or simply starts a conversation with me, out of the blue)... but, there are just times he's with my nieces and newphew (his children, of course), and he knows (or does he? I wonder. Maybe he suddenly forgets. *rolls eyes*) I'm there, and he just leaves me at the back, watching them all, while we're walking. And he suddenly says "How are my girls doing??" to his daughters, and they keep walking, hugging each other. And ME??? Far at the back, just watching them, wishing my mom didn't drop me off at their house anymore.
Okay fine. So I said a particular instance. OweL...
But that was many days ago.
Things are starting to come on good for me again. :)
There's just one problem.
And this is where my astrology report for today, August 22, comes in.
CAPRICORN Love Horoscope, August 22, 2005
Daily Singles:
You keep postponing your plan to flirt with a certain special someone. At some point you should obviously bite the bullet and make the move. But today probably isn't it.
Nope. I told myself that didn't have anything to do with me.
But talk about DENIAL. Haha. LOL.
But I think I'd rather remain at a distance. You, reader, know what I mean, right? Yea, read bet, the lines.
But THIS is no denial:
Talk about being hit by the Cosmos. ",)
:D
~Fin~
Songs that played during the making of this entry:
1) Behind These Hazel Eyes
2) My Immortal
3) When September Ends
4)Black, Black Hearts
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